Tuesday, December 29, 2009


Today is the start of HOLIDAY!!!!! ( Yeah, read it with excitement ) Cos I don't know how much longer will it last. A month not doing anything, 2weeks later, it might sounded like '.....it's holiday....still......' Haha! I'm going to have fun, for now that I still have my room mates with me. Im going to try that skiing I've been longing for ( although ophthal teacher already warned us not to, cos might end up with eye trauma ), celebrate new year in very cold minus temperature ( I've been this lazy ass for the past years ) and pure fun of gossiping all night and sleep all day ( mind u, day start at 8am & ended at 4pm ) Yerp, subuh start at 7.50am, mahgrib at 4.10pm. Even so, I still have 1day left to puasa ganti ( When will I ever ganti the last one ni :P )

Those in holiday mood, happy holiday! Those who still have exam tomorrow or in January, happy studying. God, I'm glad I'm not in that position :P

Saturday, December 26, 2009


You gotta love this.

"Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets. So, love the people who treat you right and forget the ones that don’t and believe that everything happens for a reason. If you get a chance, take it. If it changes your life, let it. Nobody said that it’d be easy, they just promised it would be worth it." - Anonymous

My cousin always posting up quotes that is so true and just.....AWESOME!
To whom it may concern,
Thank you for loving me and taking good care of me. I've been happy, u made me happy. <3

Friday, December 25, 2009

Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas everyone! Merry Christmas to Shaun, my fellow groupmate. Gotta be hard on him, on Christmas day, waking up early to school, and have to study for the weekend for final on Monday & Tuesday. But, I guessed after 5years, that is not a big deal to him any more :P. On a brighter note, he get to feel Christmas like what he always sees in TV! SNOW! So today we celebrated at TGIF after class. Dr F & I even bought champagne for him the night before. But he didnt have a drink yet, cos he said it's 'Lagho' (lalai in arabic). Seriously, I was quite surprised on how he learned that word. Lol. Living with Malays for years, I shouldn't be that surprised :P

Dr F & I bought tickets to see Beauty & the Beast on ice! Yeay! That is like one of the my top ranking all-time Disney favourite, after Lion King. After we bought that ticket, we were happily singing Disney movie songs. LOL.

I should get back to studying. Ophthal paper probably gonna be hard, I think. And yet, I still love wasting time doing other things. Okay people, bye! Next update gonna be when the holiday has started. Can't wait!

I watched 'Law Abiding Citizen' today. Totally awesome.  Must watch! Gerard Butler & Jamie Fox

Saturday, December 19, 2009


Trouble picking up which photo I like better, this one or that one? Hurm.... Haha, gediks! This is my blog, I'm allowed to be gedik, right? :P

On the other note, yesterday we had Sushi night & later, Ladies night!!! Well, we made sushi cos they said cannot eat sushi here, bcos of alcohol added in it. It's either Rimin or Sake, I don't really know much bout them. Just that, Sake is equivalent of Vodka in Russia. Something like that I guess, haha.

I got a hair do last night. Credits to Wanie! XD. I feel like Miss Cool Nigga yesterday. Baha!

Let me introduce the Girls in my group. There's B,C,D. OMG, why is it in alphabetical order? If my initial is E, it could be BCDE, but it just BCDF. Lol.

Lastly, me & my funny headgear. But really warm okaay! Protecting my ears from the evil cold weather, pampering them with warmness! XD

Thursday, December 17, 2009

Funny PSM story

I've forgotten what PSM meant, but in Malaysia, this cycle is well known as Public Health. I don't like the subject when it comes to coursework. Okay, this is a bit wrong when we took the task for granted, by using seniors' one as 'guidelines' but, the subject doesn't make sense sometime, doing statistic & reasearch. ( God, mommy took her specialization in this subject, I shouldn't have trash the subject like that. Lol )

But anyway, funny story is, a friend posted up a note in FB, stating who's taking who's (as in who's taking what topic), so we wouldn't have clashed topics. We leave comments there with broken Malay, all (of different races : indian, malay, bumiputra) understood it very well. Except one, my darling dear Chinese fellow. Haha, she understand eventually, but have to read it out loud to actually get the meaning. And those short forms, I'm sure those gave her headache :P

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

New Favorite?

I love this song the minute I heard on GG. So I did a bit of searching on this singer. And guess what, I love both of his single! Jason Derulo. If he keeps this up, I might put him on favorite along side Usher, Ne-Yo, Craig David.

Watcha Say

In My Head


The weather has been very cold lately. The coldest reached for now probably -27 C. We're expecting a warmer weather next week (by that i mean, around -10).

I wish I could just get rid of the coldness by just shouting 'SHOOOOO!' at it. Not that I have grudges towards cold, just that, my face looks like a clown with redness in the region of nose and cheeks! And it's painful too. Hence, everyone is now looking like a terrorist covering everything except the eyes. Haha.

On the other note, it's already mid December! So fast, don't u think? Having final at the end of the month, and then Holiday! Well, nothing much to expect on holiday. No trips to anywhere. But not to worry, I'm sure it still gonna be awesome, I have Dr F around. We can watch Swan Lake or Beauty & the Beast on ice. Cos I remember my 1st time to Warner Bros on ice, I was pretty much amazed with the moves. And there's also skiing & snowboarding. Shopping malls & its' sales to visit. Time to try on new recipes (kot! :P). Hahaha, I'm gonna make Moscow as a wonderful place to stay during winter holidays. Lol. Last2 kerja dok hibernate & jadi stoned :P

Lyrics of the day goes to *drum rolls* Justin Bieber Favourite Girl

I always knew you were the best |The coolest girl I know|So prettier than all the rest |The star of my show |So many times I wished you'd be the one for me |I never knew It'd get like this, girl, |What did ya do to me 

You're who I'm thinking of |Girl, But girl you ain't my runner up |And no matter what you're always number one|My prized possession, one and only |Adore ya, girl I want ya |The one I can't live without |That's you, that's you |You're my special little lady |The one that makes me crazy |Of all the girls I've ever known |It's you, it's you |My favorite, my favorite, my favorite |My favorite girl. my favorite girl

You're used to going out your way |To impress these Mr. Wrongs |But you can be yourself with me,|I'll take you as you are |I know they said believe in love,|Is a dream that can't be real |So girl let's write a fairy tale, |And show 'em how it feels

You take my breath away |With everything you say |I just wanna be with you, |My baby, my baby, ohhhh |Promise to play no games, |Treat you no other way, |Than you deserve |'Cause you're the girl of my dreams

Thursday, December 10, 2009

Very Educational Gynaecological Class

Finally, I bought filter for my 50mm lens. Yeay! Was following D to camera shop, cos she bought nikon 3000D (i think). As I've been exposing the 50mm lens without protection for a year now, finally I decided to give it some kind of protection! Tara! ~

HOYA made in Japan.

Today in class, we get to see few interesting procedures. All related to the topic we had today, abnormal uterine bleeding. It was like really busy there. Patient come in, ready with the lithotomy position, patient gets intravenous anaesthesia and the procedure begins! (I wouldn't describe the procedure here, as I think, many would find it disturbing.Haha). Procedure done, move patient  to stretcher, get her out of procedure room, nurse take new sterile set of instruments, then new vagina comes in (next patient). It was like a never ending process. Lol. Nevertheless, very educational today.

Lithotomy position.

Feel like uploading pictures today. Dr F & I :)

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

I lost hope in humanity

This is taken from newspaper cutting.

Kittens abused/mutilated to death, bodies laid before the mother

On the 11th within a Kunming Panlong District neighborhood, the four kittens of an adopted stray cat were abused to death. According to the family that adopted the stray cat, on the morning of the 11th when they heard the cat’s tragic cries, they rushed downstairs to discover this stray cat’s four kittens abused to death, and even placed in front of the mother cat. The kittens’ bodies were covered with bullet holes, with blood all over. One of the kittens had its neck tied with a rope and elongated, its chest cut open, heart exposed, while the other three kittens’ heads were stepped on. According to this journalist’s observation, the bullet holes on the kitten’s bodies were caused by a metal toy gun. It is reckoned that during the night of the 10th, someone used a toy gun to beat the kitten black and blue, so that it was unable to escape, before continuing to abuse/mutilate it to death, and intentionally put them beside the mother cat.
The poor mother cat kept licking the kittens, hoping it would revive the kittens. Crying, the women who adopted the cat were unable to speak, hoping that the cat abuser can be found.

I love cats & kittens, so my 1st impression when reading this is, 'BABI! SAPE YG KURANG ASAM SGT NI!!'

It's official. I lost hope in humanity


I have nothing much to do today, so I decided to have a peek on Gynaecology textbook. Topic - Dysmenorrhea  (painful menstruation). I don't have one, never ever have one. My cousin has it, and I think lots of other women have it. I was wondering, why it happens and how to treat it?

There's two classification, primary & secondary dysmenorrhea. Primary is when u can't determine any pathology of the pelvic. As for secondary, the pain is the result of diseases of pelvic. I don't think cousin suffer from secondary dysmenorrhea, let's go to the details of primary.

There are few causes of pain, one of it is, stenosis of internal os or narrowing of cervical canal. This result in difficulty of menstrual blood to escape, hence strong uterine contraction to force the blood out, and pain develops.
This pain will keep on happening every cycle until finally when she had childbirth, the cervix will dilate (cos baby came out from there), the pain is relief. Gosh, that's a lot of menstrual cycle a girl has to wait! A lot of pain to endure for every cycle.

As for treatment, of course there is analgelsic or oral contraception (for drugs). There's surgery option too. Dilation of the cervix. Who wants to undergo that? Beranak sudah, HAHAHA (I make no sense in that statement :P )

Sunday, December 6, 2009

Just a thought

A friend's parent passed away yesterday. Al-fatihah. When things like this happened, u started to think, how do u react when it happens to u, thousands & thousands kilometres away from home.

This when all the talks about further studies abroad or working abroad in the future (which I always got excited about), just vanished. Parents aren't getting younger, I want to be in Malaysia, where I can go check on them always.

Tuesday, December 1, 2009


It's December!!! Weee!! So today I made a statement in class, 'Yeay, it's December!!!!' The other members in my group went, 'What's on December? Christmas? Yeay, Christmas!!!' Haha, they want to pretend like there's no special date on December, but all their smirking and awfully fake forgetfulness were detected. Again, Yeay, it's December!!! :P

I sprained my ankle the other day, while playing netball. Back in high school, I would never play netball, cos I'm so cool at basketball. Baha! Well, no. I find it hard to play netball, all those not moving ur feet rules, and the goal without board to shoot at. But this netball I played, was different. Playing netball in BB court, using netball's ball but with a BB goal. God that is pretty easy! BB goal is bigger(compared to netball's), and netball's ball is smaller(compared to BB's ball), the probability getting the ball in? Is HIGHER!!! But there's lot of other good teams, we still end up being 4th out of 6. Ok la tu :D

Love this pic, now I feel tall. Hehe :P

Yeah!!! Sungguh cantik balingan itu :D

The swollen ankle & ice. It's the same sprained ankle in April '09

Rugby - girls' style. I got slammed front & back.

Done with surgery & medicine test. Tomorrow is the start of a new cycle. Public Health, Epidemiology, Gynaecology & Ophthalmology. Today is a bit chill. Going to be colder & colder this month. Early greetings to Winter!

Gahh, I can't go to swim tomorrow. Gotta let the leg has enough rest. Though I end up getting sprained ankle and body ache from the game, I HAD SO MUCH FUN THAT DAY! Thank you my team-mates :)

Thursday, November 26, 2009


Noooooo!!! Please teacher, don't give tests for surgery and medicine next week!! I'm gonna be busy for the whole weekend. Meeting on Friday night, cooking on Saturday (jualan ns lemak.haha), and sports for the whole Sunday. Netball & Futsal? I'm not good at both, I hope I don't injure myself like last year. Bahaha.

Back to the test. How am I going to study?? Die -_-

Tuesday, November 24, 2009


Although BSB concert still far from now, I can already feel the heat! Haha. So here are the song I don't think many has heard before (except those who bought their album), I just love the lyrics. They're AWESOME! (nsync awesome too :D)

A bit sad but still sweet "Don't want to loose u now"

Sweet lyrics "No one else comes close"

Sunday, November 22, 2009


Last night, we wanted to have a movie session among the girls. Somebody suggested Papadom, cause the movie won many awards and also get great reviews. As usual, I'm not that thrilled (I hate that). Whenever it comes to Malay, Korean, Japanese movies/series, my response would be 'Ohhh'. But then, once in a blue moon, these movie can really be exciting, and I would go spread the words around promoting it for a week! Baha. Other than English movie, people find it surprisingly odd that I love Bollywood movie! Haha, yes people, I love watching Hisdustan movie, just that these days it's not that easy to get Bollywood movie supply :P.

Papadom. I like the storyline. It's a good movie as compared to other typical malay movie which I can't even bear to finish it. Although I said it's a good movie, at the end of the movie, it doesn't excite me much. I don't know why, it just doesn't.

On the other note, I can't wait to watch  All About Steve. Cause it featuring Sandra Bullock!!!!! Yeay!! She is like one of my favourite actress. All the movies featuring her, never fails to excite me. That is the kind of excitement I'm looking for after watching a movie. Please download it for me, anyone? Hehe

Then, there is this documentary called The Arrivals caught my attention. I have the videos with me (total of 4GB, whoa!). 50 series if I'm not mistaken. This is what they're claiming on the documentary.

 "This Series Explores the Revelations in World Religions Regarding the Arrivals of the Antichrist Dajjal, Imam Al-Mahdi, and The Second Coming of The Christ.

A Work Inspired by Hashemsfilms and of Course the Words of the Noble Qoran, The Holy Bible, and The Torah, The Arrivals is a Joint Production by truthseekers Noreagaaa and Achernahr."

 I'm going to watch it, since you know, Grey's Anatomy next episode will be after new year. Then, dollhouse also not going to be produce until 'I don't know when'. Plenty of time to be filled with fulfilling documentary like this. U better be worth watching, Mr. Documentary!

Wednesday, November 18, 2009


I went to swim today. As I was on my way to the shower room, through the tunnel connecting the swimming pool and the shower room, there's this 1 old lady in front of me. As we walked up on the stairs, she was reaching out for her cane that she left leaning on the wall earlier. Whoa! That is 1 very determine woman. I would never seen that scene in Malaysia. Oh well, I don't even seen my mom in swimming pool anymore! Haha.

Today was very foggy at the pool. What do you expect, 0 degrees, of course it's gonna be foggy! Remind me of the scene in TV where you swim at the swamp late at night, in a very eerie environment, very foggy that you can't have clear view of anything beyond 7feet. Hurm, I wonder what it feels like swimming in December, where snow falls and temperature is minus 11 for example :D

I have an account in wordpress. Don't know if I should change my URL or not.Hurm..

Sunday, November 15, 2009


Just bought his present today. I don't know what to give, so I let him decide what he wants & he got himself a .... I don't know what they call it. Haha. But it is a camera's accessories. As for me, I've gotten myself a speed light & a new camera bag! Weeee!! XD. Dr F bought the bag for me, extra Weeeee!!!

With speed light, I feel my pics are getting more sharper & clearer! Haha, poyos :P

Saturday, November 14, 2009


12 Nov, Dr F Birthday & on 13 Nov, Asyiq's. Let me just let vid & pics do the story telling ;)

Dr F :

Asyiq :

Harap maklum, gambar ini hanyalah sekadar bersuka ria pada hari itu

Lastly, happy birthday boys! May ur wishes be granted this year :)

Saturday, November 7, 2009


Urghh..Nowadays It's so hard for me to start writing. I blame it on twitter! Cos whenever I experience something, I post it up on twitter. Then, I have no idea what to write here. Twitter is so easy & much simpler. No need to worry on constructing a long essay, just write ur mind in short sentences! Ooops, if u really not good in telling stories with few words, twitter is not a suitable platform for u to express urself :P. I'm a person of a few words, I'm okay with twitter. Gotta to admit, it's kind of irritating when u don't get to send out ur meaning when twitter already reach it's word limit. Cant they just extend the limit, for a little bit?

For the time being, I'm getting myself all prepared for Psychiatry Finals on Monday. So concentration is much much needed right now. But as usual, when u need to be very intensive bout studying, other needs arise out of nowhere and have to be fulfilled STAT! Eg : Last night I have a crave for BSB. So I watched their Inconsolable concert tour. When it ended, I crave for NSYNC 'No String Attached' tour, then 'Popodessey' tour. And as for today, Britney Spears concert. It doesn't stop there. Go on watching Grey's Anatomy, then went on searching for 'Dollhouse' but disappointed. No dollhouse this week.

I gotta stop there. Better start reading, or I'll regret it later.

Foot Note:
1. I'm going to BSB concert in December! Weeee!!
2. It was snowing heavily last night. Roads r covered in snow, n now they're melting. It's a start of dirty shoes era. Blurghhh, don't like it. Leaving stains on the floor, in the bus, EVERYWHERE! It's like walking on muddy places.
3. Body of Lies is awesome! People, please watch. Paranormal Activity is cool too ;)
4. Arizona & Torres r great together. (Grey's Anat)
5. Friends who haven't add me on twitter, please add me n I would love to add u. Username : FareenaZ

Saturday, October 31, 2009

Making Twister

It's weekend!! N as usual, movie night! As for dinner, we had a self-made twister! Nyum2.

Watched a Korean movie called 'My Girlfriend is An Agent'. I'm not a K-Movie lover, but I gotta tell u, this a funny, good stuff! Go watch it! ;)

It's the starting of a new month. November. New cycle, a relaxing one. Yippie!! It's getting cold outside.Hate winter, made me feel all gloomy and depressed. Hibernating time. U'll be surprise on how passive I am when winter's approaching. I love my bed & blanket triple times more than ever!

I'll have psychiatric finals on 9th November. That is next Monday. Hurm, gotta read all about psychiatry soon. But, definitely not today or tomorrow. It's me time! :D

No plans for winter. Going back to Msia? I dunno, sounds like a loser. But staying here for a month when roomies all going somewhere? Not that I dont want to join other's travelling, but i've been there. Gahhh, Uni have been a real bitch. Not letting us getting the letter that verifying us as a student of the uni. Why? Because, we haven't pass up translation of our passport,SPM & INTEC certificate. We did it earlier, then they said it is wrong & have to redo. All of the student have to redo! It takes time and a lot of money doing it. The 1st time translate, rm2k and as for 2nd time, rm1k.

They still haven't giving out our passports. How are we going to do the translation then??!! It's already November, with no passport, definitely not doing the translation still, will I ever get the letter to do visa in time for winter hols? Obviously no. Sigh....

Stay in Moscow during winter.Hurm, what does it feels like.... What can I do here, snowboarding? For a month? I'll go pro then. Baha! :P

Thursday, October 29, 2009

Time out

I supposed to be studying right now. Disease of diffuse connective tissue. What's in it? Systemic Lupus Erythematosus, Juvenile dermatomyositis, Reynaud's Syndrome, Systemic scleroderma and bla bla bla. So much of them to read, n I lost interest!

Hey, I've downloaded Theme Hospital! Woohooo! Childhood gaming experience. Love the game. Played it on PS those days.

A BSB song - Yes I Will just came cross my itunes. And, Dr F, PLEASE READ THE LYRICS. An old song. Black & Blue album. Gosh, it bring out lots of high school memories. Some songs can just take me back to some certain timeline. Pooff! That easy.

Yes I will, take your hand and walk with you
Yes I will, so these three words I promise to
Yes I will, give you everything you need
And someday start a family with you
Yes I will, take your hand and walk with you
Yes I will, baby I promise to
Yes I will, give you everything you need
And someday start a family with you

Let me elaborate a bit on 'give everything u need'. It can be a BMW perhaps? :P (mesti die dh rs nak pengsan ni! Usual Dr F reaction. Baha! :P )

So ok missy, go read!

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Addictive Song

Jessie 'Hottie' McCartney! Love the song. It's just so addictive! Gosh, I need to start studying!!! Why am I so distracted today?! Prolly ending of the cycle. All energy drained out already. This thing that I have for Jesse is like the thing that I had for JT back in high school. LOL

Can we not fight no more
I dont wanna feel the pain we've caused
Lets call a truce tonight 'cause my cards are down
Feeling like the only one
Know you're here but I still feel alone
Too much too fast my love
Were lookin at the door

Weve been moving too fast
Baby, with nowhere to go
Every chance we have seems to go up in smoke
Send an SOS, yeah, 'cause we b'bout to choke
This flight could go down
Crash and burn
Crash and burn
Crash and burn
Crash and burn
Crash and burn

Pilot to copilot baby we burnin up
Adding fuel to the fire, were ruining our love
Memories of what you used to be keep haunting me
I cant let you go
Instinct says Im where I need to be
And I bet youre feeling the same way as me
Baby you can think of ways, I wanna make it right

Weve been moving too fast
Baby with nowhere to go
Every chance we have seems to go up in smoke
Send an SOS, yeah, 'cause we 'bout to choke
This flight could go down, (down, down, down)
Crash and burn
Crash and burn
Crash and burn
Crash and burn
Crash and burn

Look at how far we have come
We still can get it back, we still can get it back
The damage can all be undone
We'll just take baby steps, we'll just take baby steps

Weve been moving too fast
Baby with nowhere to go
Every chance we have seems to go up in smoke
Send an SOS, yeah, 'cause we 'bout to choke
This flight could go down
Crash and burn
Crash and burn
Crash and burn
Crash and burn
Crash and burn

Sunday, October 25, 2009


Wooohooooo!!!! Oh yeah baby!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Presenting, the new look of Pena's Lappy - Window 7 OS!
Im a new tech person. Call me if u need any reformatting. Baha! :P
Cant wait to tell lil bro, since he told me to stop dreaming of using window 7 in this AGED LAPPY.

The cacated screen & I

The old age lappy can't seem to take up the challenge of window 7. It result in the formation of a stretch screen, which can be so unpleasant for your eyes. Plus, i think it runs slower than before. Stayed up til 4am last night installing this piece of crap! The lil bro said 'Jgn berangan la nak pakai W7' Lol. Imma change it back to XP. N prolly use Vista theme (menurut kate Dr F). Moral of the story - Ur lappy is already old (3y&4M), please dont try something advanced that beyond the capability of the lappy. Tak pasal2 nnt, arwah plak die :P (please2, don't give up on me just yet!)

Saturday, October 24, 2009

Nothing box

I woke up today exactly at 10am. That's 9h of uninterrupted sleep. blogger-emoticon.blogspot.com
Sweet! Switch on my laptop, go brush teeth, then back in bed again, in front of laptop. Check skype, Dr F still not online. Sleeping still I guess, I told myself. So Pena, what do u wanna do today? Oh, Grey's Anat is out, go watch it!

Grey's anat done. Stomach growling. Had breakfast. Again in bed in front of lappy. I don't have much clue on what I did, but then, as I looked at the time, spent 1h 30min in front of it!

Watched a clip on Men's Brain & Women's Brain . So men have this 1 box called the nothing box in their brains, and they enjoy it very much. Women hate this nothing box, they have been wondering how can men be in this 'nothing to think' state. Cos women think all the time. Well anyway, I think that's not entirely true. I have my nothing box, & I love being in there. Prolly Dr F hate it. Haha. Real situation :
'Syg, what are u doing?'
'Nothing. Watching youtube'

He sometimes can't understand why do i spent so much time on youtube. Aren't I bored already with youtube? Well, it's not only just youtube. I cant spent hours & hours in bed in front of lappy, practically surfing on EVERYTHING! I love my alone time doing nothing in bed :P. But of course I do spend times with boyfie, his slot is in the evening time. Movies & meal time! ( Movies & food made me happy) Key to Pena's happiness, feed me food! blogger-emoticon.blogspot.com
Bwahahahah blogger-emoticon.blogspot.com

Friday, October 23, 2009

JT, my love

Read one of Atil's post on Joe Jonas parody on Single Ladies - Beyonce. Joe Jonas didn't crack me up as much as Justin Timberlake did on SNL. So I then when browsing again for the clip, even I did watched it several times before, it still have laughter effect on me! Lol.

After that, I went clicking on other clips of JT & Beyonce. Gosh, they made a good combo!

Love the flirting act between them. Made the performance came to live. Both of them have a great voice.

I already love the song 'Until the end of time'. In addition to Beyonce in it, made the song sounds MARVELLOUS!

Kakak Hid always use emoticon in her blog. So I went browsing for it. But I can't seem to know where & when to use it blogger-emoticon.blogspot.com
SEE! Attempt FAILED! blogger-emoticon.blogspot.com

Psych Talk

I find it hard to write a post these days. Inhibition of thought. Lol. I have no idea why I like to use psychiatric terms in my daily life these days! According to the psychiatrist, all of us can find ourselves having any of these psych symptoms. Just that, in normal people, our conscious suppress them to subconscious level. But as for people with mental illnesses, their conscious and subconscious level have no clear borderline, the symptoms rise up to their conscious level, result in manifestation of the disease.

1 of the things that I find quite interesting is the delusional idea of self-importance. In this patient, he has been deluded that he's popular or have great political influence etc. As for us, we just love the feeling of being important aren't we? I know I do. Back in high school, I entered the basketball team, cos I think it's cool. What am I looking for there? POPULARITY. The psychiatrist also mentioned that we humans like to play god. Then it hit me. I get to be more motivated everytime I watch medical series (house & grey's anat). Cos they portrayed these doctors as very highly respected & great skilled people who hold lives in their hands. Play-god like character. And I imagined myself to be them. Oh, isn't it so wonderful?

But anyway, teacher said, too much of that feeling is bad for anyone. In case I'm making u more & more confuse, what I'm trying to point out here is, whatever symptoms the mental illness patients have, we have it too. Just that, we still have it under control. I think psychiatric illness is like a ticking bomb in human. If all of sudden we cant handle a stressful event, and this borderline between conscious & subconscious level altered, we will have the disease.

Foot note:
1. I felt guilty suddenly, when mama texted me yesterday saying she has been thinking about my request for a car after graduation, she didn't has the heart to say no. But i found out bout lil bro future education plan,few days after making that request. Mine isn't as important as the lil bro. It can wait.
I felt guilty cos I might have said things like Ma & Pa didn't spend much for my education here & also back in high school. For that statement, ma might be reconsidering again & again about my request. Til finally yesterday she said yes. I am not proud of myself for this. Sigh. -_-

Monday, October 19, 2009

Falling For You

1. Put your music library on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. You must write that song title as the answer to the question, no matter how silly it sounds! Most of the time they seem to work though, strangely enough.
4. Ok, go!
5. When you're done, tag 20 people in this note, and make sure to tag the person who sent you this. The answer to #20 is the Title of your note.

1. If someone says “shelf”, you say?
Waking up in Vegas – Katy Perry

2. How would you describe yourself?
Dangerous & Sweet – Lenka


3. What do you like in a guy/ girl?
Make Up - Jesse McCartney

HAHAHA, prolly, cos I don’t do much make ups :P

4. How do you feel today?
Summer Love – Justin Timberlake

Autumn-Winter-Spring-Summer. All year round Love DUDE!

5. What is your life’s purpose?
I Kissed A Girl – Katy Perry

6. What's your motto?
Live Like U’re Dying – Lenka

Nice motto eh?

7. What do your friends think of you?
Be Good – Tokyo Police Club

I know..I am & always good. Lol, as if! :P

8. What do you think of your parents?
Hey Stephen – Taylor Swift

So not related..

9. What do you think about very often?
Thousand Miles – Vanessa Carlton

Think too much of the future ay?

10. What is 2 + 2?
The Climb – Miley Cyrus

I must have failed math terribly -_-

11. What do you think of your best friends?
Hoedown Throwdown – Miley Cyrus

12. What do you think of the person you like?
One of the boys – Katy Perry

One of the awesome boys ? 0.o

13. What is your life story?
I need you tonight – Backstreet Boys

Owh la la…Bwahahaha

14. What do you want to be when you grow up?
Everybody – Backstreet Boys

Yea right, I wanna be this, that, & that.,

15. What do you think of when you see the person you like?
Body Language – Jesse McCartney

“The thing U got Behind U is Amazing” Quoted fr the lyrics :P

16. What will you dance to at your wedding?
We Can Go Anywhere – Jesse McCartney

So hubby to be, where to? Lol

17. What will they play at your funeral?
Bless The Broken Road – Rascal Flatts

18. What is your biggest fear?
Don’t Let Go – David Archuleta

19. What is your biggest secret?
Don’t Trust Me – 3oh!3

HAHAHA, so now I’m a cheater ay?

20. What will you post this as?
Falling For You – Colby Cailat

What happened to me today?! Got back from open house (Diwali's OH), then gossiping, facebooking & now posting up this, after seeing the lil bro notes :P

*Nasib dah baca mcq.Hope tomorrow can still remember. Malas nak ulang. 100Q woooo...

Notes on JRA (Juvenile Rheumatoid Arthritis) still have half to finish. Almost time to sleep already.. -_-